Whispers in Lonely Silence

Whispers in Lonely Silence
A/N: Based on Evanescence's awesome song 'Whisper' (which I sadly do not own, though I would loooove to @.@). I also don't own Death Note, Light or L. (Though I'd love to own L. ) I hate A/N's as much as you, so here you go. Pleeease read my Comments below to understand this better though, or it'll seem rather OOC for Light. =3 Spoiler warnings for pretty much the whole series, and fan warnings for light shonenai, nothing serious or graphic, probably G.

"catch me as i fall"
He's everything to me, and I know I am to him. He's the man who's trying to kill me and learn to love me at the same time.

"say you're here and it's all over now"
I feel like I'm falling... I'm losing sight of what could be, for what should be. I'm the only one who can dispense true justice now.

"speaking to the atmosphere"
Sometimes I just want to scream... I want to cry... I want to hurt him, and me, and whatever twisted sense of humor made events unfold like this.

"no one's here and i fall into myself"
I'm all alone... nobody knows what's inside my head, that demon that I want to unleash, and yet don't... the only thing stopping me is the thought of the only person who does know what is lurking in the recesses of my mind.

"this truth drives me into madness"
I'm going insane... I want to be Kira, I want to judge criminals, because I'm the only one who can do it... yet if I do, I know what will happen and I hate myself for it.

"i know i can stop the pain if i will it all away"
It doesn't have to be like this. If I simply gave in, became Kira without a second thought, like last time and the time before, I wouldn't be so torn... it's always in my mind, every time I see him, every time those eyes catch mine, I wonder when it will happen, if I can stop it... and I know I can't.

"don't turn away"
Don't leave me, Ryuzaki. You're the only one I trust, the only one I want.

"don't give in to the pain"
You know I will kill you, no matter what either of us does... don't run, don't make it worse. Give in to me... help me and trust me, and I'll love you and kill you... run and I'll kill you anyway.

"don't try to hide"
Your inner walls, your fortress, is nothing now... just with the right look and touch, I can make you as vulnerable as a small child, I see it in your eyes.

"though they're screaming your name"
Your name can't stay secret forever, we both know it well... when I find it out, I am going to write it in the Note. There is no other way.

"don't close your eyes"
I saw them closed once... I'll see them closed again someday... whether it be from sleep or death.

"God knows what lies behind them"
What will you do, Ryuzaki? If you can't catch me, would you write my name? You think the Note is evil, and you say you wouldn't use it... but if that chance grew to 100%, and you couldn't prove it, would you? You believe in 'means to an end', and if killing me would eliminate Kira...

"don't turn out the light"
Everything's fading away... the choice has been made, and the sky is growing so dark; the rain beats against the roof and there is no going back...

"never sleep never die"
I killed you... you made a mistake, and that makes you a loser.

"i'm frightened by what i see"
My humanity is fading.

"but somehow i know that there's much more to come"
I will become the God of the new world... no, I won't. Light will soon die, but Kira will live on inside him for eternity.

"immobilized by my fear"
I'm paralyzed... I killed the only one whom I truly loved, and Light is dying.

"and soon to be blinded by tears"
I'm not Kira... I'm Light, and Kira is the demon that lurks in me.

"i can stop the pain if i will it all away"
Why am I trying to resist? I will be Kira... my conscience has disappeared...

"fallen angels at my feet"
I took down so many. I'm oddly proud of myself for making it this far, yet angry that I fell before the new world was born.

"whispered voices at my ear"
I hear them gloating, celebrating my death already...

"death before my eyes"
Please... someone... help me... I'm so alone...

"lying next to me i fear"
Ryuzaki, come back! Make it all go away... please... I'm so alone... I'm afraid...

"she beckons me shall i give in"
Everything's gone quiet... I'm dying...

"upon my end shall i begin"
I will never seek redemption... what I did was right, no matter what Ryuzaki thought...

"forsaking all i've fallen for i rise to meet the end"
The sunset's light is fading... it's night before my eyes, and the last thing I see, I'm so sure it isn't a hallucination, he's really there... it'll be okay.